Yes, I really do feel lost in this world at the moment. I have such stupid depressive moments in my life from time to time, but this time it's even worse it seems, at least to me it does. Really, I don't know what I'm doing here, especially school kinda influces my current depressiveness...

Since I've been on a trip for one week, I didn't have the chance to wish everybody a 'Merry Christmas', so, now I'm wishing you a belated Merry Christmas, for those who already celebrated it~ As for others who didn't celebrate Christmas yet, Merry Christmas in advance |D''

After having stalked several LJ, I noticed that many people already did some looking back at 2007 (that sounds so weird...isn't there one single word for "Jahresrückblick"[the German word]?|D)
Well, I've stolen that from Fyra >D muhahaha~...óò'''


Now since I still have time because of my holidays, I decided to finally watch everything concerning TeniMyu again. That'll be nice :3 I got the idea when I installed my new external hard drive and put all my videos on it. I have to download more things though xD It can't be that I still have 400 GB out of 500 GB left.
Need
To
Download
More
!!!
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YAY XD

Well, I started with DD-Boys though and while I was watching the 2nd episode with amusement, I suddenly was like >>Ô_O Are they watching porn movies????<< Yeah, it's true xD I really had the feeling they did, and I was surprised that I didn't realized that earlier. Especially since the noise which made me start thinking of it as a porn, wasn't really a noise which could refer to something else |D *coughs* If you don't believe me now, that Shirotan and Yuuyan were watching something like this, start watching episode 2 at about 4 min 8 secs
I really wonder why I didn't realize it...*shakes head* Such pervs o.O...


And once again I wanted to thank Fyra fyrathilwen for her amazing Christmas present in form of two uber gorgeous Irei avatars <33 I love them, and I'll use them with proudness from now on~~ And I so wished that this, what's written on my standard pic now would be on the photosets as well xDDD*coughs*

Since LJ is freking me out with changing everything in my entry I got sick of it and I'm now posting the rest of the meme here. Hell, how I hate LJ sometimes <-<



Ok, now it's official, I really fail in those things |D *continues hiding in an even darker corner* x-x

Yeah, it's meme time xD



Beware of similarities to the cut above xD *fails because of lazyness* *hides in dark corner* It's just because they're equally important to me ;___; I'm so damn stupid ,_, Sorry~



16. For people that care and like you, say something to them...
I hope you're not too annoyed because my stupidity and simply stupid behaviour and that stuff >< Thanks for being my friends =D I really appreciate it and if there's something bothering you, don't hesitate to talk to me, I'll try my best to cheer you up and help you~ <3

17. Pass this quiz to 10 people that you wish to know how they feel about you - TRY NOT TO PEEP AT THE QUESTION BELOW BEFORE WRITING DOWN THE NAMES. In alphabetical order. You are under no obligation to post this.


1.aya_chan028
2.bunbun_tama
3.deborahs_melody
4.eiji_torishishi
5.fyrathilwen
6.matsuei_tsukino
7.missblackmurder
8.rorychan
9.savy_chan
10.unvrknow

Beware of non-sense ranting behind the cut



Today I got some recordings from the day where we went to the karaoke bar with our Japanese course. A friend of mine recorded everybody's singing and sent it to us then, but...damn...I already knew that my voice sucks, but that much..rofl...hearing myself really is very awkward and weird x___x Especially since I can't sing at all xD;; I really wonder now how people can listen to me x_X;; I always thought that my voice sounds slightly different, but..well..it just seems that I was mistaken |D''' Maybe it's just sounding so weird because my friend tried to cut out the background noises as good as she could!? *coughs* Yeah...that must be it...that completely changed my voice in a bad way |D;; But the fun is the most important thing there ^_^ And, of course, the learning effect we had, since we had to sing Japanese songs and the lyrics were written in Kanji and stuff, lots of fun lol But good thing that there were Furigana as well sometimes, otherwise I'd have been dead I guess xD I'm so happy that she only sent me 3 of the songs |D Amongst others I sang Yuna Ito's 'I'm here' and the songs 'Light' (where I failed many parts |D;;) and 'Paradox' by winds.~ They would kill me for disfiguring their songs if they knew that o___O;;;

Yeah, what else did I do? Nothing special, as always ^^" I dyed my hair again, same colour as always though o_o;; I think I'm stuck to it~ I simply love this colour, and I don't want to try another one now, who knows how that would end x-x Maybe like one of my first tries some years ago...with orange |D...but it kinda feels as if the colour was nearly gone again o.o Which is impossible by the way xD But the more I dye it, the more I want to dye it again. Strange o___o;; It's like an addiction~

Very soon Christmas will be here. I can't wait <3 Only one month and thirteen days *-* yaaa~y! And I don't even know what I should wish for Christmas [if Irei only released an Idol DVD or a Calendar..just for me, so that nobody else would be able to stare at him though *drooling mode on |D]. And more importantly: I don't know what to buy for my family O-O AAAAAA~H! *runs in circles*

Oh, and I completely forgot: Today at 11:11 am Carnival started |D Yay *throws confetti* Now it's time for walking around in strange clothes with strange music again...Yay, isn't that great?? No, of course not |D Damn, how I hate Carnival...&

...is mine now x3 I'm so happy I made it today~ Everything went totally fine and I'm happy that the day is over now. I was close to death because of my stomach aching from my nervousness |D But while driving everything was okay, I was totally concentrated and stuff xD Yay for that~*-* Now I can officially drive on my own, be aware people...I'm driving!! >D and nobody will stop if I'm too slow to stop. Sitting beside a driving instructor really is different...

driving~~ *-*

And Wednesday the Japanese course was simply awesome. Especially after it...where I had to wait for the train and went to the supermarkt to buy something...such a nice Japanese guy was looking at me *-* damn~ and when I wanted to pay at the cash desk he said in Japanese that I could go in front of him, because I only had one thing. Damn, his smile and gestures were too nice and cute and simply 'awww' xD He seemed to like my eyes though, he always tried to look me in the eyes o.o;; And when I answered in Japanese he was even more like 'aww' xD It was so funny oO The other Japanese guys (who were old in comparison to him who was like 24 ôô) were amazed as well. And I...I was proud of myself |D ...instead of being able to continue speaking to this guy I had to run to catch my train...I only had 2 minutes left.
Fact of the week: Running through the station like crazy doesn't look great at all |D

...especially when it concerns Irei's blog!
Hell, why do they have to close it?? *feels like killing Argos entertainment* The staff announced that the blog will be closed after Irei himself made an announcement - and that will happen in a few days. It's really strange, I have a bad feeling with that ,___, Before I visited his blog site I was totally happy, listening to Kazuki's new song and feeling all happy about how amazing this song is. I didn't even expect an update on his blog that's why I didn't look at it directly but..argh, it's annoying. Does it mean that he'll stop being at Argos entertainment? That he'll change to another company? Or that he'll stop all activities?? How I hate that. I'm angry and sad at the same time now. Thanks to this stupid announcement -_- That definitely made my day, I totally feel like jumping around in happiness and throwing around flowers..yeah..definitely *kicks argos*

Well, I should try to think about something else, although that might be very hard for me D=

I haven't updated for a long time again, I've got already holidays and damn..they're already over again ><
So, my last days in short:

Monday: went to Düsseldorf, Japanese stores, visited Japanese consulat general to get further information about studying and companies

Tuesday:
stood up at 4 am, went to Düsseldorf airport and flight to London~; arrival at 7 am in London, first thing Sabi saw: Asian guys people =D *coughs*...well <-<....then we went to our hotel by bus, stored our luggage there and went off for sightseeing. What I have seen?..Many hot asian guys *___* the Tower Bridge and stuff, you know xD;; *coughs* Yeah o.o; the underground is great, especially when it's so uber full and some asian guys couldn't stand properly and had to nearly fall down on you >D o.o;; well, ehm..yeah, we went back to the hotel at 11 pm, finally I could sleep! |D;

Wednesday:
stood up at 7 am, too early!!!!, went to breakfast with panda eyes =__=; and nearly fell asleep on my cornflakes |D; Afterwards we went off for sightseeing again, we were able to visit everything worth watching and what was written in the guidebook, yay!! We saw Dustin Hoffman and Emma Thompson LIVE!! O.O In colour and directly in front of us, filming for the new movie 'Last Chance Harvey' or something xD Amazing oO This guy's so short |D But it was amazing that we saw them acting just a few meters before us o.o~ *amazed* And then in the evening at the 'Odeon' cinema, there was a movie premiere of the movie 'Stardust'. There we've seen Michelle Pfeiffer and Claudia Schiffer o.o Hell, that was a star day |D Wuhuu~ finally able to sleep at 12:30 am v.v

Thursday:
stood up at 8 am=>went to breakfast with panda eyes again *sighs*, we checked off afterwards and ran through London the last time; watched guard changing at the buckingham palace, went off to get back to the airport; flew back at 8.50 pm and arrived in Düsseldorf at 11 pm; finally at home at 12.30 am; then I went to bed and SLEPT!!!*___*

Friday:
...if you thought I slept until 12 pm or something..NO! I stood up at 6.45 am...driving lessons, yay v-v *throws confetti* after I had to park the whole time I finally was able to relax at home, yay! but since I couldn't sleep anymore I had to do something else, playing game boy and stuff |D Additionally, I found out the thing I was ranting about above..yeah..not really worth mentioning again*sighs* But Katou's new song really is great..addicting *_* Although the move is really psycho-ish ôo Strange <___< In a few days I have to go to the cosmetician, I don't want to, it's boring o.o;

That's my week till now..boring isn't it?xD

I hope to see some people online tonight, I miss talking with everybody ,_, But recently I didn't really want to stay at the computer for too long, I dunno why. I hope it will change a bit~ =) So, I'm going to eat lunch now, maybe eating will distract me from my thoughts ^^"

*disappears in a cloud of cookies* o.O;

Today was one of the weirdest days until now...><
First of all the school photographer came to our school..in the 7th lesson, what means that I had to stay longer than I normally had to stay. For a stupid class picture x-x; Then I had to hurry because my parents wanted to fetch me up from school since I wanted to accompany them to the station from where they went to Frankfurt airport to leave for Africa. I really had the hope to be on time, but this stupid photographer was against me. She didn't get to make it to make a class picture...what's so hard to take a picture of 150 people? Only step back a bit! *sighs* After over half an hour she was able to make it. Wow, congrats! *applauds* I didn't want to take any other pictures of me and since it only was for volunteering people, I left with some others.
My parents must have been at the station already then. So, I decided to hurry and make my way to the main station which is about 40 minutes aways from my school, I really didn't have a lot of hope to make it on time...but...still...It's not like I haven't said good-bye to them in the morning before I left since I already knew that I might not be able to make it, it's so stupid nevertheless...Fact is: when I arrived at the main station the train already left and I only met my sister on the way.  Normally the trains are always too late, but today this one wasn't..thanks 'Deutsche Bahn'!! They always are too late when I need to hurry to get somewhere but then, if I want them to be late they aren't -____-;; That's why I decided to call them and it really made them happy and they totally understood that I couldn't make it, although they'd have liked to see me, before they left with the train, again.
It's only for 2 weeks I know, but it's so far away and Africa isn't the most safe country in this world. Additionally I worry about the illnesses which are there..like Malaria and stuff. My parents have medicaments for that but if really something bad happened on a safari or somewhere, there wouldn't be much help around *sighs* My mother cried and that made me sad again, she always cries when she leaves with my father for vacation, especially to those places which really are far away. Same goes for when they travelled to the US 3 times and to Brasil...but there I could accompany them to the airport T_T Only saying good-bye in the morning before leaving for school and trying to catch the bus isn't really great. It feels stupid and strange...
After having done the phone call, my sister and I went to Burger King..yay, calories! After that I immediately had to leave for my Japanese course, happily my sister remembered to take my Japanese stuff with her. So I hurried to the other school and tried to enjoy my Japanese lessons. The good thing is that it distracted me from my current worryings and it wasn't that bad today. My teacher didn't get all "Sabrina-you're-not-writing-this-right-you-have-to-do-it-more-parallel", might be because we didn't write anything at all today *coughs* The thing he had to scold me for today was another thing. My dialect...*rofl* I didn't know that I had a dialect in Japanese already xD''' I don't have one in German so it made me wonder, especially since I thought that I'd speak the same dialect as my teacher who's from Tokyo. He suddenly told me
"What's with your pronounciation? Why do you speak it in Kansai dialect?"
I was all like "Huh?"*insert questionmark alike looking face of mine here*
That really made me laugh...oO Seriously, I don't know where I got that from, my teacher in Düsseldorf was from Tokyo as well so...eh?xD So, new fact: I'm speaking Kansai now, and that doesn't please my teacher here. Amazing how many things my teacher doesn't like *shakes head* After having finished with it and after my teacher had told me that I should speak it more Tokyo-ish, I had to hurry again, back home now! Finally I could go back home~
Then I already wanted to prepare myself for driving lessons at 8.30 pm after I arrived home at 7.45 pm, but my driving school phoned me and told me that my teacher's ill and I have to take my lessons next week. 6 hours of driving will wait for me next week then...yoshi! I was quite happy about that though, especially since I'm going to have another stressful day tomorrow where I won't be back before 11 pm, normally I would have been back at this time today as well. Good that the lessons were cancelled ^^;;
And I also had the time to phone my parents again~ well, they phoned me =3 Just after I entered the door of our house the telephone was ringing and tadaa~ my mom was at the other end, only telling me that everything went fine after they had to change the train because one route was closed due to fire. Now they should already be in the plane, they won't arrive before 6 am though. And I'm not that sad and worried anymore. Yay for that ^^ I feel happier now!=3
Now I've got 2 weeks of being home alone and I can't even relax properly. Too many exams are coming up ,_, I still have to reread some biology stuff for tomorrow *sighs*

~Good night~

Yay~ finally I made it!
Yesterday evening I decided to write an English Wikipedia article and there it is *proudness*  Although there were some editings concerning the style. I wrote the romaji differently and I was too stupid to translate the name of the TV program right xD;; I often mistake " asa" with the "a" in ashita x_X Stupid, I finally should be able to read those damn easy Kanji .___. *fails* *hides somewhere in a dark coner*
Well, all in all the edits weren't much, as I said, only some stylistic things. Creating an article on Wikipedia is really stupid though <-< But...wah~ I'm so happy that I did it xD I don't know how making an article on Wikipedia can make somebody this happy o.o; *shakes head* Now I think about doing the same for the German Wikipedia...but I wonder if that's needed...but before somebody else wants to do it...*thinks*...yeah, I want to be the first person who creates the German one òó yaaa~y! Maybe in French, too...hm, no. They don't deserve an Irei Kanata Wikipedia page *coughs* random anti-france-and-anti-french-ness *coughs* Ehm...well...maybe I'll do a German one this evening *___* *jumps around like crazy*

Yay, thurday's over! And with that, one of those days which definitely suck xD
After having come back from P.E at 6 pm, finally having done most of my homeworks and managed to get the Paypal address of my sister to order Irei Kanata's Photoset, I'm tired to death and can't wait for tomorrow after school. WEEKEEEEND *_* *jumps around*

The weather here is freaking me out by the way...monday to wednesday the weather has been totally crazy. parts of North-Rhine-Westfalia were drowned because of too much rain and stuff and today...hotness! Wah! This weekend again! 28 degrees, sunshine, blue sky. That can't be true *sighs* And monday again..RAIN! Yay...how I love the summer |D But this weekend I planned to watch all live performances of Irei Kanata again, it's been too long since I've last watched it, only listening to the songs I ripped off the videos isn't enough for me~*-*~ /random/ *coughs* And, of course, DL 4th..it's a drug xD


Tomorrow I'll go to a chinese restaurant with some friends~ waah! That'll be fuuu~n *_*

Well, I'm thinking about downloading some of the Idol DVD's which currently are offered in the tenimyu community..but then I remember how hard it is for me to watch Idol DVD's...I often had to fast forward or stop at those points where they were all like 'I'm-taking-my-clothes-off-now-and-start-being-all-sexy-for-the-camera(man)-although-it-will-look-strange'. Really, what is the sense in them walking around half-naked, lying on a bed, showering like crazy etc? Wah, how I hated that. I went all like tomatoe mode everytime I tried to watch one~*sighs* That's why I think about better not watching them since this will only lead to fast forwarding everything again |D' Yay~

*jumping over to a new "topic" again*

I've got a stupid muscle stress from today's aerobic in P.E. xD;; It nearly killed me! Thanks~ ,____, The music was fine though, made me sometimes start thinking about other things too much, which nearly made me fall down from my step thingy. Luckily I only wobbled around *coughs* And I was in the last row, so my teacher couldn't see what stupid things I did *-* Yay for last rows! Nevertheless...my aching legs aren't funny at all! ><

"Sport ist Mord"





What I still can't believe...I've seen somebody who likes the pairing AibaxIrei?Oo WTF? Well...okay..*coughs* -no comment- *coughs*

For the first time I changes my layout. I got sick of the other one xD
This one wasn't made by me, no, I would never ever be able to do that oo*fails*

Layout by pawprints2570@createblog.com

Bad thing is, that I had to change my account. Now I'm back to the basic one. Plus account with 15 pictures 'Bye, Bye' ;_; 6 Pictures 'Hello' *sighs*
Bad otherwise the layout wouldn't have fit, and that looked stupid v-v
But besides, I love the layout *-* It totally fits to my current feelings...*coughs* XD

Yeah, that's it. Not such a long entry today ^__^
The weekend is nearly over, bad thing >< I didn't do many things this weekend but doing homeworks and relaxing and..

...watching my DL 4th DVD which arrived *___________* *dies* *drools over Irei-ness now watchable on wide-screen TV* |D and the photoset...*dies again* No wonder that this caused me dreams..finally good ones *rofl* xD'''
Ehm..yeah *coughs*...nevermind...|D''' *random fangirling*

EDIT: LOL I've done a stupid thing concerning Irei Kanata..but then I found out, that it might be seen when you enter his name on google, so I better removed it *coughs* x_x;;

This week in short, just so that you won't have to read my weird rantings beneath:
1. some teachers are crazy, I should watch out for the phone number of  psychiatry
2. homeworks are stressing me to death
3. my Japanese teacher must also be crazy to teach us for 3 hours -> we should give him a hobby
4. daydreaming hurts and isn't good in all situations
5. my desired items from Japan will arrive soon
6. I dyed my hair
7. it's only wednesday -> 2 more school days to go
8. letter to Irei sent

School started last week on Monday and I feel as if I was going to school for more than 5 months already. It's so strange..the last years I barely had to do anything. Homeworks? No, I never had to do them..or let's say: seldom! But now...woah! After 11 years of having done nearly nothing I now have to do lots of homeworks. Each day I have to work like 3 hours minimum, especially in those subjects I really hate -_-'' Maths...French...Biology...wah! Are you crazy? Those subjects are only normal courses with 3 hours a week! But then there are my intensive courses English and Geography now, 5 lessons a week. Especially Geography takes a lot of time. This week I had to do so much for it, 10 exercises...not small ones, no, that'd have been too easy I think. I ended up writing 14(DIN A 4) pages!!And we only have Wednesday! The time I had for it?1 day, from Monday to Tuesday! Amazing if you consider, that I still have other subjects I should work for, like Biology. Then yesterday I was totally happy that I worked so much and I really wanted to present my results to get a better grade, since I took much effort into it...the teacher didn't show up, after 40 minutes of waiting we found out that he suddenly got sick. Thank you teacher! Then I had to learn for Biology, which never was any of my strongest subjects, woah, how I hate it!! My teacher is definitely strange. Something must be wrong with her brain...
It often happens that students arrive late for classes, maybe because the bus was late or they had to talk with a teacher about something important..but my Biology teacher won't let late students into the clasroom. She's crazy, I didn't even know that this is allowed...and I doubt it is. Well, the others and I were sitting in the classroom, 4 students missing. Then some minutes later it knocked on the door (you can't open the doors from the biology room from the outside) and my teacher told us that we're not allowed to open the door. So the others who were missing, spent there time outside like we found out later. I should really take care about not being late anytime...
Then my French teacher...another teacher I don't like. Firstly, she's a French teacher, that should be reason enough to hate her, but aside from that, she still is the worst! We were talking about Paris (not the Hilton one, the capital one xD;) and then she came up with the pigeons there. Yeah, there are some but not that many...<-< But that's not the point. Suddenly she talked to me, I was very sleepy and I'm not good in answering fast in French - I prefer to write or to do nothing - so I didn't really take care about what I was saying. That wasn't this stupid though, the stupid thing was, that she asked me, whether I find that in our town are many pigeons. I denied because I really don't think there are too many, I mean, okay, there are some but not that they would bother me or something. She asked me again: "Do you really think that there aren't many pigeons flying around in our town? They're annoying, aren't they?" I denied again, I can't help it, I'm not there this often,I live in a calm area of our town where you barely see them. My teacher went crazy and nearly shouted at me if I really haven't noticed that the pigeons in our town are annoying, flying over the people's heads and so on. From that lesson on, I  was totally pissed off. Shouting at me just because of pigeons I don't find annoying??? Sorry, but I really couldn't follow this woman. I decided to hate her even more!
English is fun though, the homeworks I have to do there aren't that hard, although many people in my class think so. I think that sitting in front of the computer so often, made me understand more than the others...maybe. Finally I have an argument for sitting in front of the computer, yay! ^^ I still hope that this teacher won't start acting as crazy as my 'beloved' French teacher...
My other teachers are okay, it could've been worse! But really...I need a break...

Then yesterday afternoon I had my Japanese course. Yay for that. It was fun again, but the fact that my teacher decided to make the lessons longer now, because he's got lots of time now, made me feel stressed again. Now I'll have lessons from 3.30 pm to 6.30 pm. Means I'll probably have to go there directly after school. Woah, I should take lots of food with me on this day...*sighs*
Thursday's will be bad days as well now. P.E in the afternoon...before that, 7 lessons. Life's against me!
And then my exams will start in about one week. I'll die! We didn't have lots of time to do anything in all the subjects, I wonder what they want to write about *shakes head*
Some lessons are very boring though, I'm close to fall asleep the whole time, that's why I'd so like to daydream in them, but no, not possible! I always scold myself to wake up and follow the boring things my teacher's saying in front of me. So much for good grades...*sighs*
Since I don't have any time to daydream in school, I daydream on my way from the busstop back to my home, but now I found out that this isn't a good idea, either....*coughs* After having hit a lamppole some time ago, I found myself nearly running against one again. Just leave out that I neither heard the bicyclist ringing like crazy behind me, nor some people greeting me. That made me pay attention more and I once again decided to only daydream when I'm on the bus/train/etc or at home or something. Daydreaming can be terribly bad and it also hurts sometimes, believe me! Still, it doesn't want to work out...isn't there a remote control with which I can control my daydreamings? I should find somebody to invent that!

If you take my school stress aside, I'm fine. My ordered items from Yahoo!Japan will arrive soon and I can consider myself as a very lucky and happy person then~ yay for that!
And I dyed my hair again. Big yay for that as well *-*

I've also written a letter to irei, in [the worst] Japanese. Embarrassing. I wasn't very sure about the address though, I translated it into Romaji but I kinda have a bad feeling that I did it right xD Well, on the one hand I hope that he'll read it, but on the other hand I don't want him to |D He'll laugh his ass off...*coughs*


So, that about my boring life! And it will go on, and on, and on....
*sighs*

I was interviewed by aya_chan028

The Rules:
1. Leave me a comment saying "Interview me".
2. I respond by asking you five personal questions so I can get to know you better.
3. You WILL update your LJ with the answers to the questions.
4. You will include this explanation and offer to ask someone else in the post.
5. When others comment asking to be asked, you will ask them five questions.

1. If a shinigami were to approach you right now and tell you your time in this world is almost up and you only had one more day,what are the 5 things you're going to do before you leave this world?
1.) I'd want to tell all my friends and family members about it and that they shouldn't worry. While doing this, I also would apology for everything bad I ever done ;_;
2.) I'd do anything to still be able get to meet Irei and some people from AST and the internet in general.
3.) If I wasn't able to meet him and the others before, what would probably be the case, I'd want to try to get my parents to take me to a fanfair for the last time (wow...what a thing instead of getting to meet irei and the others xD'')
4.) I'd want to watch at least my favorite Myu once again
5.) I'd make sure, that all my precious things go to my friends/family members who want and need them.
(That was a very hard question... .________.)

2. If you could have anything or anyone in this world right now,what would it be and why?(Only one person/thing)
Hard question as well...there're many things I want xD Although my biggest dream is to meet Irei at the moment...but then I'd also want to meet others as well~>< Hm..I guess I have to choose Irei here, there's  a bigger chance that I could meet the others than metting Irei ^^" The reason for that is that I'm currently a lot into him..yeah, that's it o.o

3. If God were to give you one power,what would it be and why?
The power of being able to fulfill all my wishes >D with that I could do anything I want o.o Amaziii~ng *-*

4. How would you react if your parents or anyone else took away the most precious thing you own?
I'd probably turn into a crybaby and try to get it back by all means. Although I currently can't really think of something which could be that precious o.o

5. If you had to be reincarnated into something other than a human,what would it be and why?
Hm...maybe an eagle, I love those animals and I'd love to be able to fly. There's just the problem that I don't want to be shot then |D'' Hopefully I'll be a protected eagle then! ><v

Yeah, 'Surprise, Surprise' that's how a new TV show is called, in which people will be surprised by their parents, friends whoever, with something the person always dreamt of. It airs every Monday and so I started to watch it, because it's kinda interesting. Last week there were some girls who were surprised by the mother of one of the girls. The surprise was, that those girls met US 5, they kinda imported them from England xD(because I think they live there at the moment. dunno, I'm not a fan~ ><)
Soooo~ I started to think about it...why not importing me to Japan or importing Irei to Germany? Can't be that hard, can it? Well, I kinda liked the idea though xD Especially the idea to import the other 2 yay kitty girls Marta missblackmurder and Fyra fyrathilwen along with me to Japan or to import Ookawa and Baba(and the other 2 yay kitty girls x3) to Germany xD I just have to find a person who would fill out this thingy on the website. It'd would look bad if I wanted to surprise myself *coughs* (and I'm not 18, that's another problem) Well, maybe I should ask my parents <.< But it'd be kinda stupid to ask them...o_o;; 'Hey, mum, dad. How about filling out a set form to surprise me and 2 other friends on TV? I swear I'll act as if I didn't know anything!' Sounds a bit stupid, besides I'm not a good actor, especially not when it'd come to things like that xD I'd go all like ->*grins widely* Moderator: 'Why are you grinning like that. You can't know what the surprise will be oO' Me: 'Noooooo~ I don't know anything*grins even wider*' I think I'd go like that. Furthermore my parents would never ever do that xD Especially if I told them that they had to show up on TV for that~ maa~h >< I should tell them that I didn't know about that then x___X''' But still, I need to do something...;___; Especially after having watched DL 4th my mind goes like crazy even more. It's not normal anymore...due to daydreaming around like a crazy person, I even hit a lamppole on the street while returning from the dentist. That wasn't nice, I swear! ><'' x-x Not only that was bad, due to this dayreaming I always walked around smiling as if I had a paralysis in my mouth and couldn't stop. That must have looked bad...even my mother was wondering about, especially since smiling too widely hurts as hell xD So she asked me very often why I was like that, especially since she knows that it hurts like that. I couldn't tell her about my stupid daydreaming-mode so I just told her that I'm still smiling because of a joke I read in a newspaper at the dentist. I doubt that she believed me...this answer was lame anyway, so no wonder she didn't*coughs*

Or..hm...Is somebody who's 18 and wants to surprise Marta, Fyra and me, and speaks maybe German, out there? I'd really appreciate that |D''

And Fyra has shown me an amazing gif program *-* Now I can make my own horrible gifs x3 *happy* Thanks again ^.^~ And I figuered how it works, now I've done some on my own *-* *proudness* Don't steal òó Although nobody would |3''

Yeah, I haven't updated for a long time but nothing really happened and so I decided to leave it like that xD And nobody reads it so why should I update?xD

But now, after having watched TeniMyu DL 4th I can't hold back my excitement *_* Hell, Irei was damn hot...even hotter than in the other Myus, I laughed so much, not only because of Irei xD Collapsing Yukimura was also lots of fun o.o Damn, this guy's made for collapsing oO He must be Ouji of collapsing ^.^
Since I'm an Irei fan (wow, who would have thought that?xD), I focussed mostly on him *-* *still drooling* Well, I totally loved the beach scene and..and..waa~h Irei blowing kisses made me pass out for a mom *_* One thing which actually was strange is, that suddenly the texts weren't synchronal anymore..I wondered whether it's my player's fault but I tested it with several other ones so I got the conclusion that it's not my player's fault ^^" That was kinda annoying to follow the musical though =/ That's why I decided to buy the DVD |D All for Irei's last performance in TeniMyu *sighs* This guy...how could he do that to me?;_;
Well, I also loved, that Saitou and Katou had a video appearance xD Saitou's voice..wtf~ xD What would Fyra say..right KANSAI!!!

There were too many parts I loved and laughed about. Another one is Baba's changing during 'Petenshi daa', it was really cute =3 And if I would list here all the things I truly loved, I would sit here just summarizing the whole musical. But one thing I reeee~ally hated: When they paired up for the beach volleyball game..Irei and Aiba? ...<-< Why him again? Only because Saeki and Fuji are good friends in the Anime? The director could have changed something there ..would have been nicer *grr~* +___+ *kills director*
I was even okay with Minamihh since I focussed more on Rokkaku and didn't really pay attention for him xD;

I hope that not all the girls are in love with Irei now, after this 'blowing kisses' thingy ;_; *goes crazy* I kinda had the feeling that there were maaaa~ny girls screaming and..and..ehm..yeah >-<;;*sighs*
The backstage cracked me up nearly every second. I still loveee~d it *-* I watched the backstage before I watched the musical so I had high thoughts on being able to see Irei dancing in 'Depend on me' but that wasn't the case, although IRE is good as well~

EDIT: Waa~h thanks to Fyra I've got a wonderful 'Irei-kissing' icon now~ I have to thank you so much again ^^ Sorry for havin caused you trouble >

Yeah this title really is stupid but I hate to find new titles ôO;

I haven't posted to my LJ for a long time. Maybe it's because there's not much happening recently. Today was my last school day for 2 weeks *-* Yaa~y! And next friday I'm going to Sardinia for one week. I don't really want to but nya...can't help it ^^" The most horrible thing is that I won't get my Kazuki Album before we I come back...at least I think so o.o It's gonna be released at the 4th April. I probably think that I won't get it before T____T wa~h! horrible!

Now I can continue relaxing *-* Yay, yay yay~

Today I did 2 memes o.o they're kinda cool and everybody does them xD



only 8 1/2 ,___, why not full 9 points? Did this program not know that you have to round up <.<...?



awesome <3 a flower~


And I have to say, that I love RikkaiMyu OST...just to mention xD And even though it's VERY hard to say it...but....Kimura sounded really good ;___; I can't believe it. Maybe I got deaf...at least my ears must have changed...>

Woah~finally it's weekend time @.@ This week was way too stupid!!! I had to write my biology and maths exam and it was horrible!!!!! especially maths...I've only solved 2 out of 4 exercises....and those two I've solved were small ones so that I won't get lots of points for it...and those other two exercises were those big ones with the bunch of points ;____; I was so depressed on that day...
Then I got to know that I can't participate at the scholarship thingy...well, to say 'can't ' is kinda wrong because I don't want to in this case. I asked my teacher if it's possible to do half a year abroad in my next school year which actually is very important for my last school year afterwards. My teacher told me that it's possible but that I'd have to repeat the whole school year although I'd have been abroad for only a half year >-< nya~ so I decided not to participate and go to Japan when I study because my chances are bigger then so that I could study there for at least 3 years. I was really depressed at this day ;___;
I haven't been online for such a long time because there were always other things to do. learning for my exams, then on tuesday I had 10(!!!!!!) lessons in school and 4 of them were PE! I was too tired to go online afterwards ,_, It was very often like this this week so I'm glad that I can relax now.

Yesterday was lots of fun because my friend celebrated her birthday and it was hilarious ^^ (and I watched Sukitomo >3 *proud*) today I still releaxed and so on. Tomorrow I'll have to learn for my French exam on monday...that's going to be one of my next hard exams since I don't have any clue in this language x_X

And my friend sent me an interesting link today >3 at least for me it is xD This cute guy from our school....this ASIAN guy from our school has a myspace account *muhahaha* now I can stalk him *-* *is in heaven* and he's got a picture of him there too o.o (it's not that I don't have any of them ne...only...1...or maybe 2 *clears throat*) but then I read the comments I kinda got strange thoughts...no, not perverted ones =P while reading the comments it seemed to me that he's interested in an asian girl from our school....okay, maybe not but it kinda seemed so xD I'm not very sure since this girl is kinda...hm...no not related...but...eh...they know each other for a long time since all those asians on my school (who are all vietnamese by the way) know each other since they were young. Yeah...something like that ^^" I shouldn't worry about it since he doesn't even know me ö.ö; and...and...and...I shouldn't act strange like that since I don't know him either xD

So, now I'm more relaxed because after some time I spammed again *-* yaaa~y
I was so happy to go only now for longer than 5 minutes and I could talk to fyra on msn and she cheered me up ^^ thanks again *hugs*
I hope to see marta and the others around soon again. I'll die if I don't see everybody here online ;___; nyaaa~

I can't believe that it's already march. Time flies so fast...in few days it's already my birthday and I don't have any clue of what I should wish to get from my parents. I only want Kazuki's new album which is going to be released on April 4th but I don't know anything else which actually isn't too expensive. I thought of maybe getting Final Fantasy 12 since it really looked awesome *-* nya~ We'll see. Still some time left ( and 4 more exams as well *sighs )

Today I got really thoughtful after my Japanese teacher handed me out a sheet of paper where was written that there's a scholarship for Japan offered. I could participate and do some tests concerning my knowledge of speaking and writing. Only 1 person of our federal state is able to get it. I think there are many people who will participate. It's just good that it's only for people in the age of 16-17 but...well...I think there are many other people who speak Japanese ways better than me.
The requirements for this:
- German nationality and residence in my federal state (no problem x-x)
- Age: 16-17 (yay~)
- language knowledge: good English skills and good Japanese skills (I suck at both things...even more in Japanese...I still don't know much >-<)
- huge interest in Japan and its culture; willing to live a Japanese family (that's not a very big problem though u.u;;)
- you should like the Japanese food (okay...that IS a problem T_T)

Starting March 12th there are some tests concerning the knowledge of speaking and writing. I really don't know what I should do. On the first hand I don't think that I could ever make it to get this scholarship as the only person of North-Rhine Westfalia but on the other hand if I don't participate and maybe I could have won I would die thousand deaths x_X I'm so unsure...I don't want to embarrass myself at those tests but I really would like to win...*sighs*

What shall I do...?....